Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Difficult questions

My head is full of stuff!  Researching online... does Katie have oral aversion, liquid aversion, oral motor issues, swallowing issues? Will Katie ever really see me from 30 feet away, will she be able to attend regular school, will she be able to read, will she be able to drive, what will she be capable of?  What can I do?  I want to be told what I need to do, so I can do it!  Just tell me!  What do I need to do?  Guess what no one can tell me, well, no human can tell me.  I guess God is telling me I need to trust him.  Well, now in the process of typing I KNOW that is what He is telling me.  It is hard, so hard.  But it is not with my strength I do things, but by GOD's strength, so I know that He is in charge and He will light my path and guide my way.  But man, I am frustrated!!  But I guess not as much now.  God will help me!  I will trust in Him because hours on the internet with no answers and time frustrated with unmet expectations and endless worrying helps no one.  So, I WILL TRUST IN GOD!  Oh, may God be with me!! :-)