Thursday, September 29, 2011

How do I pray?

So we have not stopped praying for you since we first heard about you. We ask God to give you complete knowledge of his will and to give you spiritual wisdom and understanding. Then the way you live will always honor and please the Lord, and your lives will produce every kind of good fruit. All the while, you will grow as you learn to know God better and better.
We also pray that you will be strengthened with all his glorious power so you will have all the endurance and patience you need. May you be filled with joy, always thanking the Lord. For he has rescued us from the kingdom of darkness and transferred us into the Kingdom of his dear Son, who purchased our freedom and forgave our sins. Col 1:9-14

This is an example of how I pray! I pray your needs will be met! I pray for patience and overflowing love and joy!! I pray you find strength and endurance to make it through each day!! I pray you will experience God's peace and presence!! I pray you will feel God's arms around you, that he may hug you when you need it and carry you when you can't walk!! I pray you will know God's Will and plan for your life! I pray you give your thoughts and worries to God and surrender your cares!! I pray for unity and relationships!! I pray for your spirits to be lifted!! I pray you won't think I'm crazy. I pray you will know how much you are loved!! I pray for you!! I love you!!


How can we live life without struggles? We can't!! Why do I feel discouraged when all I want to do is encourage others! Life, I think God finds way to bring us back to him. I think God works in us to help us develop experiences so we can help others. I may come across as smiley and always cheery, well, maybe not real lately, but I am trying to help others by being ME. I am not perfect!!!!! I am not smiley, happy, loving, cheery all the time! I struggle, I have screwed up! I am broken!!! But the awesome thing about being broken is God uses broken people!!! God can use ME! Little old insignificant ME!!! I am ready!!
God can use me, all of me!! He can use my depression, my broken and restored friendships, my daughter's stroke and Cerebral Palsy, custody disputes, my failed classes, court cases, my divorce papers, my drinking binges, my loneliness, my anger, my rape~ to help other people. Wow, that was a difficult list to put out there!! Please don't judge me! I know I screwed up! I know I have my part in ALL my mistakes and failures. I know I am forgiven! And I have forgiven others! Forgiveness is a HUGE part of the healing process!! I have hit the pit of complete and utter despair, I have climbed back up to be knocked down again! Some might ask why would God do that? Well, God DID NOT but He sure did make good out of the horrible!! God is Good!! God is faithful!! When I am alone in this world, I am not alone!!! I struggle with believing in all the components of Christianity sometimes. Can all this really be real? But as I look back I see how GOD held me, God was there when no human was, God heals, God loves, God is there for me and YOU!!!! I am too!! I am putting myself out in the open so I can help others!! Contact me if you want to talk! Obviously, some topics are harder than others, you may have never know all this about me, but I will work on being open and honest. You will see the true me!! I do not speak well in person, I guess my brain can not configure words, so I keep quiet! So, please don't take offense if I don't talk to you the same in person as here!! This is the real me!!! I love you!! I am praying for you!!! Thank you for taking the time to read me!!! :)

Monday, September 12, 2011


I am overflowing!!! Overflowing with love and joy, overflowing with blessings!!!  I am thankful!! So, thankful!!  I am thankful at how I see God in every part of my life!! I can see how He has caught me when I've fallen and held me when I was down in the dumps!!  At the lowest part of my life I have had the conversations with Jesus that have deepened my faith!  When I wept and sobbed and could not talk Jesus was there, He comforted me, He held me at my loneliest moment!!  I have found comfort in Him and I am filled with courage!!  I have God on my side I can overcome the world!! 
I have watched Katie be seen by Dr after Dr and each is amazed and astounded by the miracle of her progress.  Katie is not the child whose history is on the charts.  She is an amazing miracle!!  Katie gives me hope and courage!!!
I am filled and I must overflow!!! I must share my courage and give encouragement!! I must share my love and joy!!! I must bubble over and help others find peace, forgiveness, grace, mercy, strength, and LOVE!!  God is good!!! He can fill the void in your heart!!!  He is overflowing with love and forgiveness!!  I have found Him and you can too!!!